boofbiker's Journal

11:16pm: The funny thing is
My working life is finally on track. I am happy with my new role, so why is it I can't get my social life on track? I have my friends, although after I ended my relationship with Andrew I have come to see who my true friends are.

I am not looking for a relationship right now, nor am I stating if I find someone I care for that I will turn them away. But recently everyone I have liked probably more then I should have turned out to disappoint me in some way. I have been lead up the garden path so to speak only to notice that I was meant to be on the other side of the fence and not really wanted in the garden.

I really am happy with my life at the moment but this little thing gets me down. I am almost ready to become one of those gays that doesn't want to be seen out anymore. Time for me to be missed a bit I think. Then again those who live far away don't seem to miss me. I think it is time for me to look at who my true friends are and go through my contacts in my phone and start editing who should be in there.

6:34pm: I don't write much anymore
It has been over 13 weeks since I have looked or even written anything on LJ. Life has been very busy and sometimes exciting. But the last 12 months have had some interesting things happen.

I certainly can not say life has been boring. here is a nut shell for me in 2009:

It all started off with the tradition of having a crap New Years Eve. I have never had a perfect New Years and I do not expect that to change so I have grown use to knowing I wil not enjoy it.

In February Andrew and I went away as a couple to a friends wedding in Queensland. This also happened to be the weekend that Melbourne had those horrible fires. So many lives lost!

In March my company sold my divison off and we had to follow or be out of a job. This also happened a day before i went to the Philippines. The day it actually happened was also the day i got my long service leave. Well so i thought. My new company at first said I could not take it. But after threatening to resign i got it.

In April I did my dream bike ride. I went from Melbourne to Sydney to Brisbane and back again. 90% of the time it was raining, I came off the bike and on the return I froze. But it was just what i wanted. I spent 5 weeks away and said i would do it all again.

In may I went on a work trip to the Kimberley region of Australia. I loved it. It was hosted by my old company who sold us off in march. The best bit was my old boss was on my group and we discussed me returning back to work for him from home. I tho0ught it was to keep the peace while we travelled.

At the end of June I ended my relationship with Andrew. let us skip this bit but I can say he is my friend now.

July and August was spent enjoying life again and doing what ever i wanted to do.

In either late August or early September I had a call from my old company asking if I wanted to have an interview for the job I wanted. I said yes. After a very long and difficult interview and a 24 hour rest i was told I was the first person they wanted to hire. Again i might add as this was the first thing I was told 8 years ago.

23 September was my last day working as a retail travel consultant for Escape Travel. I also left that night for my bike ride again to Brisbane. i wasn't expecting this to happen so quickly after the last trip.

On 5 october I started my new job with training in Brisbane. I love the job and people I work with. but i was in brisbane which I hate visiting. Although I did get to visit my mother.

After 9 weeks away I returned home in late November. I missed Melbourne and was happy to come home. I didn't ride back though so I had to put my bike on a truck and send it back. but i was home and did not care about the time I didn't have it or the money it cost.

Now in December and I am working from home and loving it. My dream job is here. I am a very happy person again.

What is even better is that in January 2009 my weight was 127kg. in September it was 117kg. 3 weeks ago it was 109kg and as of today I am at 107.5kg. I would like to get down to about 105kg and then i will work on some weights at the gym.

Sorry if this offends others but in my own eye being a bear does not mean you have to be big and fat. I have done that and time for me to be healthy again. To me being a bear is about attitude and how you except others for being who they are. That said I am much more a leather guy then bear anyday.

So at the end of 2009 I can say that I am happier then I have been in years. I have the job I want, the single life I want, the weight (well almost) I want and a new lease on life. I am goign to be 100% selfish and make 2010 all about me. I am coming first this time. What i want matters most. that should be for everyone. What you matters most!

2010 the year life is fun again

7:07pm: Time for a change
Hi All

Well I have been quiet of late. Simply because I have not had the time to even scratch myself. But the reason is.... Drumm roll please....

I have a new job. I have finally resigned from my position and have taken up a roll working from home. However, I have not started my new job yet. I finish my current position on 23 September. I then have to ride up the East Coast of Australia to Brisbane, again! I will then start work on 5 October in Brisbane for 5 or 6 weeks to retrain on systems I have not used in a while. After that I am back home where I start from home. I never hve to ride in peak hour traffic again. I never have to worry about bitchy staff members and I never have to wake up super early on a cold and wet day to leave the house.

I will still be in travel but only domestic travel. I am not doing international anymore. I will be selling to travel agents and to the general public. Something I have done before and I am good at it.

The funny thing is I am going back to the company I started travel with and worked for up until March this year. My office was sold off and I had to change companies. But in May I went away with my old boss on a nice work trip and we talked about me working from home. Some time later and a few discussions and I am now employed back where I belong. I also feel a bit special since I am the only person hired outside the company and state of Queensland to work from home. So I have to prove myself worthy.

Oh and Paul I havent forgotten about your trip I am just waiting to move over. I can save you some time and money that way.

11:57pm: light bulb moment... although on a dimmer switch
I was siting in my spa tonight when I had a light bulb moment. I will not say what the topic is as then people would react or comment. But the thing that I like to plan for others, then give and have done. Oh so many times with pleasure, is something I believe no one will do for me. If I have to ask it would be pointless. So I can go on now knowing that although I want it I will never have it. Oh and this has nothing to do with sex. I just read what I was saying. This is something I think is far more important. Ok I can turn the light switch off now.

But if I ever do get what I really want, I will know the person who makes it happen is a true friend and one that I will love forever.

10:26pm: New adventures
I am going to title this post "New beginnings" because thats is what I and Andrew can experience. Although many of our friends loved the fact that Andrew and I seemed to be the perfect couple our new beginnings will not be together.

I was in a relationship with Andrew since 21 September 2008 until 4 July 2009. It was only a relationship that lasted just over 9 months. But in that time I gained a few valuable lessons on being who I am and trying to respect others for who they are.

I do not regret the relationship as a whole as I am not that type of person. But in the same note I knew that what I wanted from my partner and what my partner wanted from me were two very different things. In view of our friends and the company we were surrounded by on the weekends we did seem to be perfect together. I told Andrew and will tell everyone, that in public Andrew and I had an amazing time. I found someone who could be a lot of fun with. he wore his heart on his sleeve for all to see and that is an amazing quality in a man.

Sadly though behind the scenes from our friends life was not what we wanted or needed. I think at some point we both seen a fork in the road and I went left and he went right. I could see and feel that although I cared for this man we were not going to be happy with each other in a long term relationship.

I know I have hurt and disappointed a person I cared for deeply but I had to. I had to be true to my own feelings. I had to be true for his feelings. Difficult questions were asked, discussed and answered. Our voices were never raised, we talked openly and honestly and it is something we should have done long before last Saturday.

So here I am now, single again with a life full of new adventures to begin. I do not know what will happen but I am looking forward to it all.

10:47pm: Proud Aussie
Around Mid May this year I went away on a work rewards trip for selling a particular company. We went away for 6 days up to the most amazing place in Australia. Now I can say that as I have covered this country a fair bit with my work.

I was lucky as this trip I was considered a Mega Star for being in the top 15 consultants who went away. We had 6 groups and my Group got all the special attention, we even had the CEO join us which always means fun. Just for the record I came in at number 6 out of 4412 travel agents who sell this company.

Our itinerary started us off going to Darwin for 1 night which really was only 5 hours by the time we flew in and left the next morning. We then flew into Kunnanarra in the Kimberley's in northern Western Australia. From there we had a coach ride through the most amazing scenery and crossed rivers and travelled down dusty dirt roads until we came to our home for the next 2 nights at a place called Home Valley Station. This also happened to be the place and area where a lot of the filming for the movie Australia took place.

If you ever want to be in a place were you just sit in awe this is the place to go. On 1 evening we all sat on a look out and watched the sun go down and as it did the Pentacoste Ranges ( I hope I have the correct spelling for it) changed colour and then the sky changed and the stars came out. It was a show like none other!

My time at Home Valley Station included 4x4 tours, fishing tours, sitting around a camp fire singing and listening to stories and watching native animals like goannas, kangaroos and crocodiles.

From Home Valley Station we left and flew into Broome and managed to be pampered at the Cable Beach Club Resort and went camel riding along Cable Beach. Broome and Cable Beach is famous for camel riding and I enjoyed ever minute of it.

Our first night included the award dinner for the 150 agents that attended and I managed to pick up 3 more trips away. 1 to the red centre of australia, another to the Whitsundays again and the last to Brisbane and the Gold Coast. Funny enough I am looking forward to the Gold Coast as it included Hot Air Ballooning.

The last night we had a live performance by Wes Carr (for those of you out of Australia it is this years winner of Australian Idol. Lets just say he is hot in person and sounds better in person. Although his manager was creepy and was hitting on me. If only he was hot!

Other high lights were seeing old friends and running into my very first fag hag who I have not seen in over 10 years. It was so amazing to see her again.

Now behind the cut is some pics I took along the way. People complain I never add pics so here you go.

( Aussie Boof Pics )

11:08pm: I'm still alive, not that anyone asked. been travelling, home now.

5:27pm: Travel
Well a couple of things. I have my first Famil (work trip to check out things) overseas next week. I am off to the Philippines for 7 nights. I have never wanted to go but since seeing the proposed itinerary I am looking forward to it. This will also be the first time I am travelling to a 3rd world country. I think this will be an eye opener for me. Considering I tend to like 5 star hotels and nice cities.

The other thing is I am up for an award at a Australian travel industry award night. I am a finalist! I and my manager only put my name in while we had nothing to do one day. Seems I wrote a good response to my nomination. You never know I could be winning a nice trip or some cash.

Yeah to me!

11:47pm: Light Bulb Moment
It dawned on me this morning. No not the sun but a place in time when I went "oh yeah"! I was thinking about life in general and about memories from when I was happy or did something proud. I discovered that most of the time I was by myself.

For a person who hates being alone I have a lot of good memories of being alone that I will cherish until the day I die or get the disease with memory lose... What's it called again. Oh I don't know I forget!

Anyway, I was just happy with myself thinking I am not that bad of a person in life. I may annoy some people and have others hate me even more. But in a nut shell I think I have made some people very happy and sometimes proud.

The time that i feel proud of myself most is when I was a child. It has nothing to do with sport or success in my career or anything to do with gaining any medals or money. It is a simple act of kindness. I remember being about 10 years old walking near the train station one hot day. I remember seeing up ahead a old lady, easily in her 80's. She was having a very difficult time carrying her suitcase. So I went up to her and asked if I could carry her suitcase for her. I didn't know where she was going but I offered.

It turned out she was walking about 3km to a hotel on the edge of the river. I think we walked for about 2 to 3 hours. All the time I was talking to her and showing her some respect. I think she was in town visiting family. I just remember it being very sad that this little old lady was visiting family and no one would come and pick her up, pay for a taxi or even have a friend waiting for her.

I could see she was lonely and although I had only helped her carry a bag to a hotel I just simply felt proud of myself. I think any act of kindness is something to be proud about. I had nothing to gain but a lot to give. I ended up speaking to this lonely old lady for an afternoon and I thought it was wonderful. She was great to talk to! I left her and to this day I keep thinking that I hope her family really did appreciate her.

So if you have read this far I would love to know what your proudest moment in life has been? It doesn't have to be a heart felt one. It can be anything. But I would like to know!

3:29pm: at work
Here I am at work looking after what ever comes in the door. Not much usually happens at this time of year. Everyone has either come back or on there summer holiday. The good news is our manager has decided to close the office at 2pm tomorrow so we can enjoy our New Years Eve.

With that I will be going to work with hubby and enjoying a few beverages and good company with the crew there. Then on New Years Day Andrew and I will be going to a dance party called Nurse Betty. Buy the sound of it everyone I would want to go is going. Only a few friends missed out on tickets. But all my party mates will be there and even a few more I didn't think would come. Apart from Sircuits Christmas party, Sircuits 1st birthday, my birthday event (details to come) these will be the event to be seen at and to be at!

One friend missed out on a ticket but since Geoff didn't want to come and I now had a spare ticket, I decided to share the joy and give it to him.

I am very excited. I bet come 3 January I won't be as perky!

11:30am: I am sitting here at work, willing people to come in and book a holiday away. I am planning my trips away next year. So far they all seem to involve travel in or around Australia. In February I am taking Andrew up to the beaches of the Gold Coast for a wedding. I figured if I had to suffer one of those straight rituals he can to. But we will also stay at a nice resort and visit friends as well.

In March it is Andrews birthday and my brothers so I am trying to arrange a secret trip away for them. I spoke to friends of Andrews to see if they would be interested in coming on a 3 day cruise. It is on the Sun Princess from Melbourne to Sydney. It is just a sampler cruise but it would be nice if we could all go away. I just have to wait on my brothers girlfriend to tell me if they can come. Andrew and I will go regardless!

Then at the end of March or early April I will go on a motorbike ride up the east coast of this great country. I plan on visiting cities like canberra, Sydney, my home town of Taree, the Gold Coast again and then Brisbane. I get my long service leave on 2 march so I will have plenty of time to go and will have plenty of time left over.

I also have Rob visiting from South Africa again mid march so I think I think I will have plenty to keep me occupied early next year. Good thing I work in travel!

7:23pm: managers
I have had a little giggle this week. I discovered that when our general manager and our franchise manager were in town a few weeks ago they did something that I find funny. Our office phone has a cd that clients can listen to when on hold. sadly that cd does not work anymore. So they decided to tune in a radio station so clients are not on hold to nothing. The thing I find funny is that they never listened to what station they were tuning into.

Our gay radio station Joy FM is now featured as our on hold music. I didn't even have to set it up. I only discovered it when I was away from work and called in and was put on hold. I giggle because I can imagine 85 year old mrs Smith calling and being put on hold to listen to anal stories or listening to dildo information. hahaha

Nice work and not done by me but 2 hetrosexuals.

9:38pm: not just me
Ok it is official. I am not single anymore. Not sure how it happened but I am happy!

12:46am: yeehaa
Well tonight I went out to Sircuit and went for a ride on a mechanical bull. It was my first time and I went in the time trials and managed to stay on for 38 seconds. Not bad for a first attempt. I hope to do better next time. Considering a guy who is a regular did 39 seconds i was happy. But I was hoping to beat 1 minute. Now I know I can ride a man for a lot longer. Is their time trials for that?? hehe

12:46am: I am full of anger and fear! I pity the person I finally snap on!

4:17pm: because I answered "I'd fuck you" to someone else I had to post
Everyone else is doing it...


Fuck or Pass game.

The rules are simple.

If you want to fuck the person who posts this, send him a reply saying "I'd fuck you." But then, you have to post this in your journal, in exchange.

All comments screened.

5:54am: San Francisco thus far
Well I am having fun in San Francisco so far. I would have to say this is my best visit to date. I keep running into people I know and catching up with them. Still many people I want to see but I can't rush these things.

Below is the person I am staying with. The lovely Leif and and that other person is me. Taken as we were going to sleep and I was playing with the camera



The morning after I arrived a group of us went on a whale watching cruise. I decided to call it a water watching cruise because we seen no whales. Buy the host was very excited to see birds. We seen a lot of those... excuse me one second **YAWN**, ok now where was I? Oh yeah birds. I asked if there was some bird watching cruise being very dissapointed about only seeing whales somewhere. hehe. Ok this si only a handful of the guys that came along. notice how I am centre of attention yet again. haha



The 2nd or 3rd night I was in town I was taken (kicking and screaming naturally) to a afternoon dance party where I seen this hot guy on the dance floor. I thought he was the hottest guy in the place. My friends gave me courage and talked me into going and telling him so. So I did. Well before you know it we were alone at another party doing rude things with each other on a staircase that people were using.... really have dance parties never heard of back rooms here??? Anyway Mr Hottie is named Scott and he is from New Orleans and was here on a holiday as well. 2 days later we hooked up again and drove all over SF in a convertable and played happy tourist with each other. Probably the best day being tourist I would say. Anyway below is Scott at Fishermans Wharf looking at me and the Rock in the background!



Scott and I started our adventures after breakfast and went right up to twin peaks, it was so nice. This is the only pic we managed to get together... well on my camera anyway



This is me at Golden Gate Park at some pretty garden. I would like to say I seen more of this garden but a little old man stopped us and started talking to us both before telling us to get in the car and go look at some other garden. He was sitting with his wife of 50 + years and it was really nice and special. But so bloody funny when he shoved us off. He was telling us to run to the car almost. Funny thing is we could not find the garden he was talking about. I didn't mind as I had a sexy southerner talking to me and I was all mushy. Awe!!!!!



I will have more to come but for now this will have to do. Once I figure out how to use my video camera on here I will post the sexy Scott talking to me. Drooling again! BTW the best moment was driving around Fishermans Wharf with Scott singing Sweet Home Alabama at the top of high voice. I was loving it. That just screamed American to me and in a good way!

10:35pm: jet plane
3 days and counting until I leave for my visits to san Francisco and then Auckland. I am very excited. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

10:07pm: attention all my geeky friends
I need to buy a good video camera that will allow me to put stuff on my laptop with ease. I have a toshiba laptop (sorry not a mac). Any suggestions? I am not switched on computer guy nor cameras and shit, so I really want something simple.

9:53am: lets fly away, lets fly fly away!!!
Well South Africa is not happening due to the cost of the flights. But I am now booked paid for and confirmed for San Francisco and Auckland. I leave Australia 7 August and have a 17 hour lay over in Auckland before flying off to San Francisco. I arrive on 8 August and leave on 23 August. I am then in Auckland from 25 August until 31 August.

I am so happy happy happy!!!!

The best bit was the flight only cost me $1310.00 with my industry discount and it is a confirmed seat. not a stand by rate. Now all I have to do is save like crazy to have some spending money.

12:33pm: opinions please
I am thinking it is time to let the Lesbian bike go. I have had it for 7 years now and as much as I love riding it I think the bike is cursed. Seems cars love turning into or in front of me.

That in mind I am thinking of getting a sports or a sport tourer. I would be higher up for people to see and if someone decides to run me over at least I will have the speed to pull away from them if needed. I really want another Yamaha. I like the brand and I love the dealership and the owner. WOOF WOOF

For all of those who say I should get rid of the bikes altogether... Well that wont happen. I prefer to die riding then spend my days stuck in traffic jams or worse.... public transport!

Not saying public transport is bad, I am just to much of a princess to be seen regularly on buses, trams or trains. I like moving when I move not on a schedule.

6:41pm: this week ended with a bang, crash and ouch
Ok so my week was crap and last night on the way home from work a car decided it wanted to be in my lane.... While I was in it! so in a nut shell I was side swipped on my bike. I have damage to the bike and a bruised leg but thats about all. Bike will need some repairs to it. the ride side isn't pretty. The bad news is I will have to pay the excess as the driver didn't stop.

So with a shitty week and a bike accident I took Friday off work. I called my boss and said i was not coming in. She agreed it was a good idea to stay home and let the new week begin on a better note.

But I am going to have a play date tomorrow night right after a massage. I am very happy about that!

Hugs to all and hopefully see all the SF people soon.

10:35am: I am having a day from hell and it is only 10.35am. I have clients who departed Australia last night on a flight with tickets issued in the wrong name. My error and the clients error. Anyway normally when this happens the clients can't depart on a flight. However, the airline allowed them to go. That means I have to try and get the rest of their journey booked, changed and reinstated back as the airline also cancelled the tickets due to a no show, even though they are safely on a plane to London!

This would all be sorted if people looked at the tickets once they got them! It would also help if people could spell the last name of loved ones. AAArrrggghhh! Seriously who doesnt look at all documents once they get them.

Now I have 3 airlines to deal with and I have spent hours dealing with just the first one. then i have to tell my clients they have to visit airline offices in a foreign city on there honeymoon.

Time to get back to get back to it. Nothing like starting a new month with huge issues! Well on a positive side I may get the grey hair I am after.

My suggestion to everyone. When you book things with travel agents or brokers please please please check names are correct when booking and on collection of documents!

10:06pm: where am i going?
I am not sure what is happening with my trips now. I have enough money to fly somewhere and at but not enough to pay for hotel. Running out of options for SF. If I do visit it looks like more as a transit for a few days over the final destination. But I will not give up hope yet.

Under 2 months to decide what to do, but I guess I should wait for my money to come from work first. That will determine what I can do.

2:30pm: SF here I come
Hi Everyone

I have decided to be smart with some money my work is giving me. I was going to use all of it to go to South Africa but it would mean I would have no spending money and my credit card would be very very full and life would suck once I return home. So instead I am going to come to San Francisco again 15-29 August as this will be cheaper. Just for 2 weeks. The catch is I will not have money to pay for accommodation. I am thinking of asking the usual wonderful people I know if I can stay with them but would like to ask everyone here for some help as well.

Also is there any events that would be happening over that time or around that time that I may like, ie: bears, leather or anything misbehaving?

Also on a side note, I am feeling good this week, first time in a long time. maybe it is because I know I will be going away.

the bad side to not going to South Africa is I have to let my friend know I won't be coming and this is the second time I am cancelling. I hope he forgives me.

Hugs to all.